Reward panties can be framed as something profoundly humiliating. I began to realize something more subtle in her thinking that I could appreciate, as I tend to appreciate all of her thoughts (although sometimes not as quickly as I really should). The more I dwelt on it, the more I came to think of it differently. We’re both pretty open to trying each others’ ideas, so I let it sit for a bit.
Without the constant humiliating reminder panties provide of my sissy status, I just wasn’t sure how I’d feel. I was worried this was not going to be any fun for me at all. So when Mistress said she planned on withholding panting and only letting me wear them as an occasional reward, I was more than shocked. These things, including panties, would be things I’d say needed to be a regular, frequent, and maybe even constant part of play in order for the play to be any fun for me. From my memory of it, I knew I would give either a 4 or 5 to “cross-dressing” and to “slutty clothes” (and i mean on me). You know the type, like this one: She and I didn’t look at a checklist but I had seen this one before. Quite a while back she and I talked about one of those checklists of domination and submission likes and dislikes. She has rewarded me with panties now, and in what must be the height of blogging hubris I link to my own blog post of when she did this. Since I am here for her pleasure and not mine, she has decided, therefore, to deny me the obvious pleasure I get from wearing them and instead allow me to wear them only as a special reward.
She mentioned this idea to me a short while back: knowing that I am a sissy and seem to have been enamored of wearing panties and other women’s clothing since before she and I met, she has, in her wisdom concluded that I like to wear panties. But my Mistress is introducing to me to something I’ve not encountered before: reward panties. For a sissy, these seem to be either very ruffled, elaborate panties, or panties that lock on, or panties well-suited to spanking: sheer or without a read end, so as to provide no protection.
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